ABOUT MY BLOG: FOR YOU "NEW" READERS

Hey there.  I see that I have some new readers hanging around lately, and I want to welcome you and let you in on a few things relevant to this space.

This blog was begun last June when I was in a dark hole of anxiety and depression which had arisen from  intense stress related to the full time J-O-B I was working.  You don't really need to know too much about the J-O-B except that there was a lot of negative feedback and high pressures to perform tasks that were usually unrealistic and sometimes, ridiculous.

So, in May of 2011, I left the J-O-B on a medical leave and fell into a deep, deep, deep abyss of depression.

My heart and my brain longed to find the light.

My family longed to have the "real" me back...but I had NO IDEA who THAT person was anymore.  That person had been lost.
Gone.
Buried under a heap of expectations and stressors and dissatisfying work that I poured every ounce of effort and care into.

Then, one day as I spent time zoning out online, tripping across different sites and blogs related to family life, depression, anxiety and the like, I found some art and photography websites that sparked a light in my spirit again.  I remembered then who I really, truly was and what I really truly wanted to do in life: Create, Love, Live, Be satisfied, Be honored, Be Happy.  And Create.

SO, then, I began to draw again.  I pulled out my Prisma Color pencil crayons and began to color again.  I found photo challenges and started shooting again, increasing my artist's eye and understanding composition, light and angles better than ever.

And, I found myself.  Right there in the middle of writing this blog, drawing pictures and taking photos.  I found my heart, my spirit, my truth.  I had set out to "FIND THE TRUE" and I had succeeded.

I haven't shared the existence of this blog with many people that I know.  My husband and children know about it.  Two or three of my best girlfriends know about it, and I have gained anonymous readers from around the world.  But most of the folks that I know in my life DO NOT HAVE A CLUE.  Not even my mother, sister or in-laws know that I write this blog, and that is because it started out as a personal journal and it contains loads of vulnerability that I am working through accepting and learning to share, but that I haven't quite figured out just yet.

And so, as I write this now, I know that people around me have started to read the blog, and that is what it is.  It was bound to eventually be found, and I have never kept it as a private log in terms of the online search capabilities.  But now you also know why I haven't mentioned it in daily conversation.

If you would like to know more about how I feel on this tack, please check this out:TERMS AND CONDITIONS AND OTHER INFORMATION ABOUT THE BLOG I WRITE.

Thanks for stopping by.  If you are here, please don't be a peeping TOM.  Leave me a comment and let me know you are peering in on my private ramblings.  It is the courteous thing to do.